Girls Girls Girls

So I really dont understand some people! I gave him head months and months ago before I even met Adam. Him and his girl was broken up she was trying to F@#$ someone else and even told me to go for it. She wanted him out of her hair. I have a witness to it all. But now someone decided to run their mouth and start shit. As I was getting ready last night to go hang with friends I get a txt asking if I did that. She wont tell me who told her but Ill find out soooner then later. Now this girl wants to fight me and shit I told her Im not gonna do it but Im a pussy. She says she dont want drama but look at what she is doing! She is also posting shit about me on her page for real grow up you have two kids we dont have time for you to act like a kid. So idk anymore Im ready to move because I have better things to worry about then this right here.

Yard sale do it urself

Ugghhh so Im trying to get ready for this yard sale crap lol its kinda frustrating but Ill be ok. I need to clean my car out so I can fit all this shit into my car and take it to my sisters house. Thank god Im doing this I need some extra cash. Maybe if I make a lil extra Ill be able to talk a short vacation out of indiana lol Im going insane here...

Because Im Military Spouse?!?!?

I get this feeling like Im marrying into the military that now no one from my home state wants to hang?!?!? Its like its not convient for them. Im still here I like to go out and do things too. It does get boring just sitting at home. I do get lonley often. I need for a friend. I need for someone to call or txt me and ask me to do some fun wild things to. Does no one want to hang out because Im getting married? Is this how this new life will work for me? Will I only have my military friends after I say "I do"? So many qouestions and no answers. This is how I am feeling right now and its like if I say this to my friends they will get mad at me for stating how I feel. I hate crying it gets old. I feel so left out. WTH is wrong with me?

Im told well when you move back to Tennessee then we can hang out and it will be convient for you. WTH Im in Indiana 20 minutes from you? How is this not convient now for you? I dont know maybe Im a cry baby but still I have feelings and this is how I am feeling now. I just want people to think about me right now and include me in cool things. Im only human what else can I say about that. Hell who knows.

So today has been an ok day just been relaxing listening to the rain. Wishing I could move back closer to post being in Indiana is nothing but stress here for me. Worse then this deployment. Me and a friend have made a page for other army wives to come and join to talk, meet and vent too. We have so many dinners and play dates oh and also girls nights out set up for the ladies who need a break. Im so pleased with it all.

Im also wanting to buy a new camera so I can start taking pictures of people maybe start my own buisness. Its such a big passion for me and I love to edit pictures to. I have my own page on facebook that I edit pictures for others. http://www.facebook.com/#!/profile.php?id=100001208526230&ref=ts

Tomorrow I am meeting up with a friend to take pictures of him and his adorable little boy Im so excited and cant wait. So maybe if things go right I can make a carree out of all this photography thing. I guess we will have to wait and see.

The home life

So I moved back to my home state to be with my family to get support on my moment of weakness. Since I have been home the 2 1/2 months that hes been gone has been very stressful. My family dont understand and all we do is fight more. I wold normally just sit in my room and talk to military wives on facebook. I dont know what to do to get them to talk to me or atleast listen to me when I need it. When I try getting out of the house they bitch and it drives me insane. Being home with my family is stressing me out more then this deployment. :(


My friends also dont understand. Iv actually had someone tell me they dont understand so they dont know what to say to me. What am I to do? No one calls or txt me as much anymore and it does bother me and hurt my feelings. Iv always been there for my friends no matter what even when I didnt understand. Im a good listner. I feel like they dont want to listen to me when I need that friend so I confide in girls on facebook and thank god for them.

Adams family has been very supportive and are there for me when I need them. It just sucks that they are two states away from me. They are amazing people and I see where Adam gets his charm from. I couldnt ask for a better man in my life. I miss him like crazy and ready for him to be home.